I had
always wanted to write my vows, but I had no idea what to say and little idea
how; and when the time came to finally think and I finally thought that I was
ready tragedy struck and one of those that inspired my life expired and
breathed her last on this earth and with her death waned any chance that
inspiring words could in my mind be arranged and I said the traditional “I
do´s.”
So, without further a due, this is what I would have liked to have said to you the day we said “I do.” On that day we promised to never leave no matter what we go through. On the day that God trusted me to be your ideal help. This is what I would have liked to have said:
I am not perfect. Yet, even so, there are no words to describe just how hard I will try to be everything that God has asked of me – please be patient because Proverbs 31 is not easy.
I´m honestly scared out of my mind of failing and at the same time driving you crazy – my violence is an outburst of my perceived insufficiency. And I really wish you knew that it´s not you who did this but it´s something so well hidden that I myself don´t even get it.
I would have liked to have warned you that my love is different – no matter how hard I try I´m just not much of a princess. But instead of staring at all that my love isn´t you´ve helped me to learn what it is. If nothing else, it´s definitely genuine. It´s not based in things that change or conditioned to things staying the same but committed to the promise I made.
And try as I might I´m just not romantic and I never really understand your antics, but I absolutely love that that´s who you are.
